Tears

Recently, a friend blogged and asked, "What moves you to tears?" I commented, but I must say Ashley, I have been quite teary these days. I'm not sure if there has been a day that has gone by in the last week and a half that I have not cried. Sometimes it's just watery eyes. Sometimes it's outright bawling.

I've already written about my friend who moved to Bolivar. I've come to realize something over the last few days since she's been gone. I might actually miss her children just as much as I miss her. You see, as a mom, I pray daily for my kids. Before Caleb met Alli, I prayed that God would send a wonderful friend to him. Someone who liked to play. Someone who genuinely wanted to be around him. Someone who had Christian parents and who would be a good influence in his life. After all, a child is not only influenced when they get older...they are influenced right from the start.

God sent Alli. Fortunately, He also gave me the chance to become great friends with her mommy. How neat is that?! :o) But then, when I learned of their intentions to move, I felt a sense of emptiness. I wondered who would fill that gap? Caleb does have other friends...yet...it's just not quite the same.

When I was praying about this earlier today, I could hear this scripture in my head:

"Be still and know that I am God." Psalm 46:10

Finally, after weeks of not understanding why God only had the Causey's in my life for such a short time, I now feel comfort in knowing that He will still provide the friendships my son needs. He will still provide for me as well.

I miss them very much. And I still cry about it from time to time. But I promise, Ashley, I will not discount the wonder of my tears.

Caleb and Alli on AWANA Award Night